I don't know what I have done wrong but this really is not a good year for me. If I can just fast forward everything, I would. I don't want to be where I am today. I don't want to feel whatever I'm feeling at the moment. I just hate everything that is happening.
I want to end this blog positively but I can't. I just feel so down right now and I just don't know what to do, what to say, what to feel. I just want it to end.